Friday, March 31, 2006

Maybe I really am masochist?

Last night, Sean stayed up late again on his laptop whilst I fell asleep next to him. There was a film on though that we were both trying to watch, so I tried to stay awake, but to no avail. By the time Sean came to bed, I was barely awake and indicated to him that we could do as we did a few nights ago.Things progressed a lot quicker this time and soon he had me on my front, taking me hard and deep. And while this was happening, it was... well, it was nice but it wasn't doing much for me. Don't get me wrong, I was enjoying it, but I wasn't going to come.

That changed when Sean started indulging his biting needs. He's been in a biting mood for roughly three months, and often indulges himself; biting my neck, my shoulders, my breasts, anything he can get his teeth into at the time. As I write, it's currently my back and waist. Last night, it was my shoulder under attack, and boy did it feel good! Suddenly I was coming and whispering words of encouragement to my lover. Funny how a little bit of pain did that to me. Maybe I am a masochist after all. I wonder whether many couples experience this change in response to pain?

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Always Ready...

I think Mel's internal clock is about 3 hours out from mine. She seems to want to sleep before 11 whilst I am happy being up until 2. Anyway, last night I was very busy trying to fix a lot of problems that had cropped up related to some webhosting that I do, and so I was working hard away. When she turned in she read a book and said that she didn't mind if I was to continue working, so I opted to, thinking that I could probably fix it within an hour or so...

She fell asleep, and after a while started the type of breathing that suggested she was having a dream. And here I was coding. Well... she looked so peaceful, I continued to code, but the problem ran deeper than I first thought. In the end I reverted to a previous server where the problem didn't exist, by which time it was about 2 to 3 hours after Mel had fallen asleep.

I crept quietly under the covers, and squeezed her gently. She was sleeping with a t-shirt on, which was rare for her, she normally sleeps naked with me. I gently slipped my hand under her shirt and felt her breasts. I felt her waist, her tummy, her thighs, her bum. No response from her. I felt a little harder, getting horny at the feeling of her near-perfect body against my fingertips. Her legs were slightly apart, so my fingers moved gently down to her pussy, and I inserted one.

Her pussy was not wet with her juices, but it was not dry either. I licked my finger and reinserted it. I moved it gently around her opening, not wanting to go near her delicate clit for fear of waking her. I moved my finger in a circular motion, gently, fairly fast, and before long her vaginal juices made my finger's movement so much slicker.

It must be some kind of survival mechanism, but she didn't stir at all, even though her body was obviously preparing itself for penetration. I continued my gentle fingering until she was moist enough to my liking, and then put on a condom. Not having any lube to hand, I substituted saliva, and moistened the end of my cock before straddling one of her legs and gently pushing my way into her.

It was very awkward, but I did not want to wake her until I was fully in her. I pushed deeper and deeper, and still no response. None until I must have been a good few inches into her, and had started thrusting. I moved a leg to make it more comfortable for myself and she awoke. She did not seem to know what was going on at first, but she did not seem at all alarmed. I lowered myself onto her, repositioned her and my legs for comfort, and continued to thrust into her, but now harder. She seemed to be enjoying it, and soon she was making "I am very close" noises, whereupon she came, still fairly hushed, but the loudest she had been in her parents house for a long time!

From sleep to orgasm in 2 and a half minutes, I thought to myself! Thats not bad! I continued to thrust, deeper, harder, and I think she came another couple of times, myself coming with her the last time.

I think she really enjoyed it. She said afterwards that it shows that she is always ready for me, even when she is asleep! That's a nice thought to keep in mind, though I am not quite sure I could use it at a family dinner...

Have fun all, I had better get back to Mel as she has been sucking my cock whilst I wrote this, and is probably ripe for the taking by now!

Laters,

Sean.

xxx

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Mmmm...


Last night we tried something we haven't tried in a while. We had sex infront of the mirror. Often, I'll shy away from it, I hate the sight of my huge naked ass pointing in the air as he does me from behind. He loves it, he can see my boobs bouncing or bobbing in the mirror, but I often feel uncomfortable and even turned off.

Last night, though... wow...

I must write more about how much I enjoy Sean go down on me, as yesterday's post earnt me more fun in that department. Oh how I love being dragged down the bed by my ankle, only to sucumb to his wonderful tongue! Pretty soon it was time to lay back and have him enter me. He angled the mirror just right so I could see us both from a slightly-behind-to-the-side profile. This ment I could see my lover's bum. His shoulders, back, the curve of his waist... I have a fluttery feeling right now just thinking about it. And there wasn't much of me in the mirror; just him and his lovely thrusting hips and strong arms holding himself up on the bed. Yum.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Role reversal #2

This post will surprise Sean. What I'm about to write I'm willing to bet that he'd dismissed once the real fun for him started. What I'm going to write about is the thrills that grip a women's body when a man goes down on her with out her asking, and then does a fantastic job.

The moment he slipped down my body last night, I knew what was in store for me. Within minutes I was gasping and thrashing my head about, all wanton like, and I was ready for the wonderful build up to orgasm. At this point, it must be said that the conventional position for giving a woman head looks uncomfortable. I've never been on the giving side of the act (unfortunately) so I wouldn't know for sure; but having your head bent that way with your jaw open can't be that comfortable. So kudos to Sean for seeing it through. Last night I became so excited by his tongue probing my clit (mmmm) that my hands left my nipples and tangled in his hair. He seemed encouraged and carried on with increased liveliness. I became tuned in to my body's wants and forgot all about my self-consciousness. I held his head in place, pressed against my wet pussy, while I thrust into his face again and again. His tongue pounded against my swollen clit and I was in heaven. I reached higher and higher levels of pleasure, without actually being thrown off of the top. It was the most wonderful and fun thing in the whole wide world. I had momentary thoughts along the lines of Now I'm the one thrusting into him. I'm the one in charge, I'm the one controlling things... I'm the one holding his head still and thrusting into him, not caring if he chokes...

Bliss.

After maybe 10 more minutes I came with hushed sighs and moans. Immediately I felt that I wanted to roll over, kiss my lover, and sleep. A part of me giggled - not only did I thrust like a man, I also wanted to sleep straight after the act like a man. (Sean will want you all to know that he doesn't do that - he stays awake with me after sex to whisper sweet nothings and giggle about silly jokes.) Sean was having none of it. Sean wanted a shag.

So I dutifully got into position (we've had a lot of missionary lately, maybe I'm subconsciously protecting my cervix?) and we had sex. Perhaps if my first orgasm wasn't so mind-blowing, my subsequent three or four (I don't keep count) would have felt better. Who knows? What I do know is that soon I had the urge to experience my lover climaxing, so I encouraged him. Once again, I was taking his role. I was the one telling him to come. Was I even topping from the bottom? Well, maybe I didn't go that far. But it would be good to swap roles again when I'm in the mood, even if its just in my head like last night.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Thanks to Sugasm...

This weekend saw a first for our blog - I submitted this blog to Sugasm and was successful. And it was through that issue that Tara found us. Thanks Tara for your lovely comments!

This weekend saw us move back to my family home once again for the holidays (we don't go back to Uni until 24th April!) and once again we are enjoying the comfort of a double bed. It's so much easier on Sean, now that he doesn't have to walk home after our fun. It also means I get more fun...

Our first night at my home is always passionate. Friday night was no exception. Then Saturday morning, Sean wanted to play again. I'm not sure exactly when I woke up that morning. The first thing I was fully aware of, though, was a slick finger passing between my legs and the words "get a condom then". How long I had been dozing in my lover's arms, enjoying his touch and kisses, I have no idea. Sean reckons it was around an hour and a half. All I know is that by the time I was fully awake I was wonderfully wet and ready for him. Magic.

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Thursday, March 23, 2006

Women aren't the only complex creatures.

Last night me and Sean had an argument. It was nothing major, in the end, but it did show up my total inability to talk openly. That seems to be a skill I'm losing. Which is worrying. The problem revolved around the fact that we don't plan when we're going to do the deed and so we end up leaving it to the last moment when it's too late and too cold for Sean to walk home (we have to come to mine to do anything - long story)

It started when Sean asked if I wanted to watch another episode of Dark Angel or go to bed. When I asked for claification of "go to bed" he told me that he meant sleep, he didn't feel in the mood for anything else. I felt hurt, but I said we might as well watch more of the sexy girl on TV (left, from Celebs Heaven). Did I mention that I was trying, and failing, to hide my disappointment? It felt that recently any time I tried to show I had an interest in engaging in sexual activities I was knocked back. He was too tired. He had too much work to do. He was too stressed. Can't sex help cure two of those three? After our problems of not wanting / having sex often enough, finally realising the fact and then even setting up a blog to try to monitor how well we actually are doing, he just knocks me back everytime. And I thought it was my fault that all of these problems arose: two years ago-ish I started feeling bad. Infact, I've posted about it before. Along with alienating myself from my friends and watching over 6 hours of TV a night, I also let our sex life disappear. We still did it now and then. But Sean felt guilty for asking for more, so didn't... he pretended that he was okay with once a fortnight...

Anyway, most of that is solved now - for a start I got off of the hormones. So there I was, trying to tell him that I wanted to make love to him, and he said no. I know I'm meant to be the submissive one, that I see to his needs and when he says no he means no. I couldn't help but show my disappointment though.

He asks me what it is that I want to do. I don't want to answer, partly because of my difficulty of saying rude things out loud. I finally manage to string a sentence together, "I want to take advantage of the fact that I'm not on..." A lame answer, I know. But that was mostly what I felt like. He sighs, "Well, I guess that's the best I'm going to get out of you. Come on then."I look at him. What?

After some prompting, I'm suddenly getting my coat on and walking with him to mine. I'm confused. He doesn't want to: he's too tired... but now he does? Even though its close to midnight. I say as much. He gets angry, or at least frustrated, and wonders out loud if he's ever allowed to change his mind. I think I shed some tears, and more probably fell after he changed his mind as then I wasn't concentrating on holding them back any more. He's totally exasperated about the fact that I seem more upset now he's agreed. I just wish that I could be less of a sissy-cry-pants. Less of a brat that needs to get her own way, and will cry until she's manipulated whoever it is who's keeping her from getting what she wants. That brat needs a real hard spank.

So, yes, in the end I did get my way. And he was rough with me, because he was angry. Rough was just the way I wanted it, too.

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Lucky there's a family guy...

Today I offered Sean a blow job. I just let a little comment slip during an IM chat along the lines of "and then I can give you head?" and he all but turned me down. So when I went round his later I didn't mention it. After an hour or so of TV-watching and my hand resting innocently on his groin, and after my looking up at him with (possibly) greedy looking eyes, he told me "oh, go on then!"

I wasn't sure to proceed or not, he didn't seem enthsisatic and if he didn't want it then why should I insist on doing it? After a couple of encouraging comments from him and a few hand gestures, I went and did the deed anyway. I cannot tell you how hard it is to give a guy head when Family Guy is on in the background.

Especially when he's laughing.

Anyway, I rather enjoyed myself and in the end Sean enjoyed me too. It turns out he didn't want head because he felt he'd have to give something in return. I'm flattered (perhaps the wrong word) that he seems to be... um... so well trained, but I didn't suggest giving him pleasure so that he'd give me something in return. All I wanted to do was to please my man and have him come in my mouth. Which he did and then I was happy and content. And he called me his 'Good Girl'. What is more satisfying than that?

Monday, March 20, 2006

Oops! hehehe!

Last weekend we went to stay at Sean's family home. Things were going rather well Saturday night until we realised we had no condoms. Oops. I had been looking forward to sex followed by snuggles - rather than sex followed by goodbyes as we normally have. I couldn't help but feel disappointed that we couldn't do the deed after all.

That is, until Sean suggested we ask his 18 year old brother. He insisted that I ask! Fortunately, he was logged on to an IM, so I asked him over the 'net. On Sean's account.

Sean: Hey
Sean: Erm. Do you have any condoms
Sean: ?
Brother: ffs
Brother: I think so, hang on
Brother: yea

So, after one short walk down the corridor (which Sean, thankfully, made) we were set for the night. A few passionate kisses and powerful orgasms later we were both able to sleep in eachothers arms (metaphorically - we usually end up facing back to back...).

And now I know the use of younger brothers.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Don't you dare scream...

There was a knock at my door. "Yep!" I shouted, expecting whoever it was to enter. They didn't. I got off my bed and went to the door. Opened it. I managed to take one glimpse at the person standing there before he covered my eyes with his hand, roughly bundled me back into my room and said quietly into my ear, "Don't say anything, or I'll cut you" He'll cut me? As if to confirm this, I felt a blade lightly graze my neck. He pushed me to the wall "You better not move." I didn't. He replaced his hand with a kind of blindfold and then I was allowed to turn to face him. He kept the blade at my neck as he undid my dressing gown. Uh-oh, I knew where this was going to lead. "Be a good girl, and I wont hurt you" he told me as his knife swept down over my breasts, "You'll only speak when I explicitly tell you to... and when you do, you'll call me Sir or Master." His voice took on a lighter, more playful tone, "I'll call you whatever I want. Nod if you understand." I nodded a small, subtle nod. "Good." My dressing gown fell to the floor. He grabbed at my head and motioned for me to turn round for him. "You are a fine specimen, aren't you?" Dispite the fact I didn't know him, I must've beamed with pride. I pleased him! He led me further into my room and raised my arms. "You better not move."

Well, have you ever held your arms in the air for longer than a few seconds without support? As the man was doing whatever it was he was doing, my arms were beginning to ache and I finally had to move so that my hands clasped each other above my head. He must have noticed, "You'd better not be moving!" he informed me as he busied himself. As I waited for him, he must've said that warning three or four times... I couldn't help shifting my weight and eventually my arms drooped so they were only just above my head. He came back to me, and said right into my ear, "I specifically remember that your hands were apart." I instantly unclasped my hands. "I also remember that your hands were higher than that." With that he took something and smacked it firmly on my bare ass. Possibly my wooden spoon that lives near my bed? I whimpered, he was much harder with it than Sean. He pushed my arms back into the air, put a collar round my neck and a cuff on each wrist. He then went away for a few moments more, all the while commenting how good looking and well behaved I was compared to other girls he'd seen. Then I heard the distinct sound of chains.

He clasped one of the chains to my collar and lead it down between my legs and up the other side, where it was fastened to the cuffs on my wrists. A second chain ran perpendicular to the first, under my breasts and round to be fastened off on the first chain.

Next thing I knew, I was on my knees at his cock. As soon as it went near my lips, I knew what he wanted and took his hot cock into my mouth without his instruction. "You really are a good girl, aren't you?" Once again, I positivly beamed with pride. However, his satisfaction quickly vanished, and I was left trying to forfill commands such as deeper and faster. I chocked on his cock more than once and the one time I pulled away I was greated with "You'd better not do that again, slut." I didn't. I didn't dare. When he was happy with my performance, he pulled me back up to my feet.

"Since you've been a good girl, and didn't scream when I hit you, I'm going to reward you." He removed the chain running between my legs. I was positioned on the bed and he went down to my hot cunt. He was going to give me head? At first, I thought I could see it out without giving my pleasure to him. But his licking was relentless, and very soon I was coming for him. Just as he had planned.

He let me stand again and his hands caressed my smooth skin. "You've been such a good girl, and I'm sorry to say that when I said I wouldn't hurt you I meant I wouldn't permently hurt you." The carresses form his hands were repleaced with carresses from his knife blade. My contentment vanished and only fear was left. He's going to hurt me with his knife anyway. And with those thoughts I shock my head, tears started filling my eyes and I slowly took paces backwards. This experience had been nice, but I didn't want to be hurt. Not like that.

Thwap! A sharp sting, from what I persumed to be my spoon, spread out from my theigh. The tears in my eyes fully formed and the blindfold became wet. Thwap! Maybe this was what he was referring to? This pain I could handle. This pain I enjoyed. Releif swamped my body. I may even have smiled through my whimpering when he hit me. "Now I want you to kiss me." He said in my ear as he came closer to me. I gently shock my head. Kiss him? "I want you to kiss me like you love me. Like I'm your boyfriend and we've been together for six years." I couldn't do that! To be used was one thing, but to kiss him and show I had emotion for him? To fein love for him? He moved closer to me and tilted my chin upwards. There was nothing for it. I gave him a peck. Thwap! "That wasn't convincing!" So I guessed I had to do it. I pretended this man was Sean and, in the end, it wasn't hard to do. I let his tongue explore my mouth and I reciporcated as little as I could. He pulled away, apparently satisfied that I had achieved what he asked me to.

Next, I was led back to the bed. He lay me down and sat above my face. His cock dangled right infront of my mouth with his words, "You'd better be gentle" After a few moments he moved down my body and was ready to penetrate me. "Since you have been good, I'll enter you gently." He gave the impression that other girls hadn't had it so easy. I actually felt proud that this man was so pleased with my behaviour that he was going to reward me with something he didn't usually give. However, I did try and give him a hard time to pry my legs open. It was my last defense... which he easily broke with highlighting the fact that he didn't have to be gentle with me after all.

He entered me with ease. I wasn't at all suprised with how wet I was. He obviously was. He invited me to think about all the other girls he had fucked; none of them had been as wet as I was. I really was a slut. He wondered out loud what my boyfriend would think of me if he found me now, a slut who was wet and easy. Then he wondered if actually I had a girlfriend instead, and whether she'd be disapointed that I had so greedily craved his cock. After he was done with his musings, his thrusts became harder and more forceful and I found myself whimpering on the edge of orgasm. He picked up on this, "Now you're going to come for me, you fucking whore." I cried, shock my head. I. Was. Not. Enjoying. This. Honest. Really. It was no use, I was enjoying every minute of it, every part and every thing. He told me again, using more and more names, and I shuddered and whimpered my way to orgasm. He all but tutted and told me that he had heard quieter. He kept up his rhythm and very quickly, there I was at orgasm again. This time I managed a much quieter one, and I hoped he was still pleased with me. He pulled out, turned me onto my stomach and entered again. This time he was rougher or deeper... or both. My breathing quickened, and I knew I was going to come once more. "That's it, there's a good girl." He told me, as we both came at the same time.

He lay on me for a while, breathing heavilly and I knew I had pleased him. He let me sit up, then he removed my blindfold...



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It's been a while

Last night my period ended. Tonight, after Uni, I will stay at home and tidy up my room and have a long hot shower. I will invite Sean around, say at half past eight; and, instead of watching TV like we do every night, I will be looking forward to a few hours of passion. I've missed the feeling of having him inside me. I guess we will have to go gentle to begin with and will probably need to indulge in quite a fair amount of foreplay... *tee hee* what a shame! Sean I hope you read this as it comes in on the RSS. I hope this is all the hinting you need.

You have one hell of a horny bitch on your hands.

Monday, March 06, 2006

It's story time...

Mel's been in a bit of discomfort for the last short while, she was probably too hard with me the other night! Well, I offered (being in a gentle mood) for her to opt between us both getting head or having gentle sex. She opted for head, but with a story. She does love her stories. Well, I am a bit useless at making up stories on the spot, I have to REALLY be in the mood to make a good one. So instead I went on the web, and we found a couple stories, which I read to her as she knelt, cramped under the desk, and gave me head. One was about a 3-some (MMF) which was quite good, and the other was about BDSM, but I think it was too violent for our wants, the girl was made to bleed, and she said stuff like "my gash". Personally, in a dirty context, I prefer the word "cunt". "Pussy" is good too, but gash/slit/etc I just don't like. Each to their own. I didn't enjoy reading that one as much, though it did have some good bits....

Mel's getting so good at head. She's gaining the style that makes you feel like you are always on the edge of coming, for the whole time. It's awesome, and it feels so good when I actually do come, though that still takes a little help from my hands on the back of her head and some faster thrusting. It's strange how much hearing a woman choking on your cock can turn you on...

Afterwards I washed quickly and was just about to command her to the bed when she told me she was satisfied. She had been giving me head for... well.. a very long time. Cant remember exactly how long, but it was two stories, read aloud, slowly (I was a bit distracted...). I didn't understand how she could not be horny after that. As it turns out, she had that satisfied throbbing that she gets after orgasm or something, and so was satisfied. That and I had told her a few hours before I wanted to be in bed by 11:30 and it was already gone midnight... I suppose she only gets that throbbing normally after penetrative sex, not oral sex, so she was happy...

Well, best get back to my work,

Have fun out there, and men: don't underestimate the importance of slow blowjobs. I know your instincts tell you to just go for it, but trust, a quicky is good, but not as good as it can be,

Laterz,

Sean.

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Sunday, March 05, 2006

A pretty girl for you.

It was a good time, sharing a whole fortnight with Sean, living in a house with only him and acting all domestic-goddess-like. Like it was our house. It was a glimpse into what it will be like in a few years time. There was one thing on my mind, though.

"Sean, I've missed the chains."

Pretty soon, we were back in my room and my chains were out. He had told me that he didn't want the chains to become a fetish, sure they were nice but they weren't needed, were they? I agreed that of course they weren't, and why would I let it become one? Why would I deny myself orgasm* if everything else was right apart from there not being a chain in sight? With that sorted, my top was off and my collar was on.

Sean tied my arms together infront of my body, in a way that was nothing like this at all:

I tried for ages to find an image (I'm sure I've seen one) to illustrate what I meant, but my google-ing skills suck. I found only one. It was of a young asian boy which I didn't want to post, so I decided I'd treat us to a fine example of womenhood in rope instead. Nothing to do with this post. But fine anyway. She's from http://www.nawashi.com, by the way.

Anyway, my elbows were forced to be bent and so my hands ended up together infront of my mouth. An idea immedieatly struck Sean, I think. He told me to kneel, and within no time at all his cock escaped out of his jeans and he was lent back on the bed while I saw to his needs. I could tell he was enjoying it, all moans and grunts. Boy was it fun. Our love making was very much like our second session on this night, with us sat on the edge of the bed. And when we were finished I didn't want to take my collar off. Sometimes I wonder if he would ever leave it on me, chain me up and tell me to sleep at his feet. But then I realise that we would both miss our cuddles.


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*Sean has, rightly, pointed out that it's subconcious. So, he says, the only solution is to only use them once in a while. I'm alright with that. For now.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Sm*ck your b*tch's ass...

This morning, I did as I was told and didn't wake Sean like I did last week. I just found a book and read it. My good behaviour didn't go unnoticed, and at quarter past noon, Sean asked if I'd like a "quickie" before J picks him up at half 12. Well, given our past attempts at quickies, I wasn't sure we'd make it all the way before J knocked at the door. I said yes, though, and was immediately told to strip and start "playing with myself". I felt shy at being told to touch myself infront of him again, but told myself it's nothing he hasn't seen me do before. I closed my eyes and got on with it.

Within a few minutes, Sean was naked and between my legs; he was going to give me head? But we only had about 10 minutes? It didn't take me long to be ready for him though, lusting for him to be in me. He seemed to feel the same and it didn't take long for him to enter me. I was told that because this is quick, I was allowed one orgasm and that it'd be at the same time as his. I agreed. It was too much though, and as he pumped faster I felt myself get ever closer to orgasm. 3 orgasms later, my man came too. It was perhaps the fastest three orgasms I've had. He told me that I couldn't complain, that I had had twice as much fun than he had promised. When I shook my head and corrected him he told me off. But he laughed as he scorned me. So all is well.

Ah, before I press the "publish" button, two things are of note. 1) J didn't pick Sean up until 1:30pm, so we actually spent a long while together after my quick "seeing to". 2) Sean named this post. 'Nuff said.

Bottom smacking.

Perhaps after my comment on Monday that our relationship has been rather vanilla recently, Sean felt that he had to prove that our other tendencies are only just under the cover.

Last night's love session involved a lot of bottom smacking. I've been craving it for a while, and perhaps Sean has noticed. It still surprises me how much I seem to enjoy it. Sean has mentioned before that it might be to do with the self-harm thing and I think to an extent he is right. That day I scolded my hands with the water in my room I felt a lot of relief. I haven't felt that down since that day, but there are days when I feel that I just want to go and hide. Sometimes it's those days that I try to initiate the whole spanking thing with Sean. Most of the times he takes the bait and smacks me so it stings. Then I feel better, and often it'll turn me on. Perhaps now I've said this, he wont take the bait any more and will try and talk about how I feel. Talking about it, though, usually reduces me to tears. Don't get me wrong, Sean, most of the times you end up spanking me it's because I enjoy it; not because I want to hurt myself but can't bring up the courage. Argh, perhaps I've now made a big hash of this thing and I should start off again.

Sean smacked me repeatedly during our love making last night. I enjoyed it immensely.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

What's in a name?

Last night, as Sean started to make love to me, I begged him to call me names. My heart pounded in my chest as I was contemplating asking him, but when I finally did he humoured me. It was a lot of fun, and I was very much turned on. He called me new names and I loved every minute of it. How I loved to be his 'dirty bitch', his 'disgusting whore'. He seemed to have massive staying power too, and he forced me ride him until I was too exhausted from the multiple orgasms he was causing me to have.

I cannot express here how much fun was had...